Wednesday, October 12, 2011

Humbled...

God never fails to humble me. 

When I'm having judgmental thoughts, He turns it around by showing me something about that person to help me see them differently. When I'm irritated with someone, He shows me their heart and helps me to reach out to them.

Well, today I was humbled in a different way. I've been having lots of mixed feelings about being here and missing home more than I ever have after having been there last weekend. Today, I got a text from a close friend who said she loves me and and wanted to know what she could pray about for me...I'm teary eyed thinking about what a blessing she is and all of the other people I'm blessed to call friends from APU/younglife! I know God put me on her heart and mind because He knew/knows exactly what I need!!!

Although this isn't the "ideal" living situation and the ideal family situation (I MISS MY MOM EVERY DAY!), it is days like this when a simple text message reminds me how lucky I am to be here and know such people. Thank you Jesus for the simple yet beautiful reminders! :)

Thoughts On A Study Day...

Stress.

Anxiety.

Sadness.

Jesus, please give me Your peace that transcends allllll my understanding. No matter how hard I try to analyze, think, plan, nothing will come of it. Please help me to give all of my anxious thoughts to You! I don't want them anymore! Please help me to love her in a way that makes You proud. Please help me to be more understanding and patient. I ask for you light to shine through me, Lord and that you'd show me what Your peace looks like through these situations that I'm struggling with. Thank you so much for listening and hearing my prayer Lord. I love You so much!

-Kaylee

Friday, October 7, 2011

Home...

Home is where the heart is...so I have two homes.

  1. Minnesota
  2. California
I'm having a hard time. Being home feels amazing. I have been so incredibly homesick and I truly forgot how wonderful Minnesota is. This will always be my home. Everything is beautiful, everyone is nice, and it's familiar

California on the other hand is home because all my friends are there, Josh is there, and APU is there. I love APU so much and couldn't feel more blessed to be attending such an amazing Christ-centered school! But I cannot explain how difficult it will be to get on the plane Sunday night, knowing I won't be back here for two more months.

I miss my family and the familiarity. I miss the nice people everywhere. I miss the simplicity. I miss being able to drive 15 minutes and being in farmland or going the other way and being in Minneapolis. California has its "advantages", but I didn't realize how often I block out how lonely it can make me feel sometimes.

I know when it comes time to graduate, I will have some tough decisions to make about my future and where I'll be, but for now, I'm content having two homes to come back to with people who love me and care about me.

For now, I'll continue to enjoy my weekend home and cherish the time I do get to spend with family in the place that will always be my home.

Sunday, October 2, 2011

Catch Up!

I forget to blog...I'm only reminded because of Nichole Moor, aka my blog obsessed friend! haha! So here's whats been happening.


Me best friend/roommate got baptized two weeks ago! I was so proud of her for "taking the plunge!" :) It made me emotional, but for good reasons! Haha lovelovelove her!



I got to go to a younglife retreat last weekend for all the leaders of the LA area (there were probably 150 college-aged people there, ready to learn more about being an awesome younglife leader! It got me so pumped to start up our new younglife at Sierra High School! Of course, it wasn't all learning! We had a tacky prom Saturday night ;)

Claremont/Sierra leaders :)
Amanda and Laura, love them so much!

It was super pretty there!

Oh, and I did get to go to yacht club for about thirty minutes before we left for the retreat ;) I only took a few pictures but here is my fave with Heidi!


In the past week, I got assigned my D-group and I am so excited to meet the six girls in it and grow together! I have been looking forward to this since January!! I also inherited a severe cold in the past few days haha! It's probably the worst cold I've ever had...ironically none were ever this bad in Minnesota! haha! I also cannot wait to start younglife. Jamie and I talked and she wants me to be a senior leader! I was sooo excited when she told me! I love younglife and am such a planner so I felt like it was right, but wanted to be respectful of her desires as well. So now I'm just pumped to start! All of the other areas have started club and it makes me SO antsy, but I also have to realize we are BRAND new and club might not even start club until next semester. We will be starting tutoring in the coming weeks though, and that's how we'll recruit kids so that makes me excited. Other news...there's an amazing surprise. But I'm not saying it in case the person it involves by some chance is reading this. But it's happening Thursday and I CANNOT wait! It's all I'm thinking about! :D

Well, it's probably time to get more sleep (if that's even possible)!

Love,
K