Sunday, November 6, 2011

For The Bible Tells Me So

I grew up in a home where Fox news was constantly on, but where the channel would often be changed to CNN to compare how the more liberal side of the media projected things. This is something I've always appreciated because it's helped me to be observant of how far passionate left-sided people will go to avoid certain issues, as I'm rediscovering with a documentary I'm currently watching on Netflix called, "So the Bible Tells Me So." I wanted to watch this documentary because it was in the "critically acclaimed" section and I was curious as to how a liberal film maker would portray Christians regarding the topic of homosexuality.

Not surprising at all, the documentary makes Christians look crazy and insensitive. They also take the pieces of scripture where homosexuality is discussed and change the context to fit what is "politically correct" and to help it fit what they find "convenient" for their own lives.

They talk about how all of these organizations say homosexuality is genetic and can't be "fixed" and that there's no scientific evidence to prove otherwise...well there's no scientific evidence to prove that atoms formed form a pile of mud when the temperature was just right and that from there we grew to be animals and then humans. THERE ISN'T SCIENTIFIC EVIDENCE FOR EVERYTHING BECAUSE GOD ISN'T SCIENTIFIC!!! That's why it's called faith!

A final thing they discuss is how those who oppose homosexuality are afraid of gay people, and even go as far as comparing it to Hitler and his hatred of the Jews. Wow...seriously? It then blames the church for creating an environment in which gays are looked down's talking about what God says is WRONG. God also says it's wrong to get drunk, have sex before marriage, or cheat on your spouse. What about the people who commit those crimes? Wouldn't they also say the church is creating an unhealthy environment for these people too? It's only an "unhealthy environment" because they feel guilt for what they're doing! All sin is SIN, and you should feel bad about sinning! But then you can accept you messed up and receive forgiveness because Jesus died for that! There is grace and mercy for everyone!

"Just because it's written in the Bible doesn't mean that's how we do it today." One of the closing lines from a practicing rabbi...this video just acts as a reminder of how messed up our world is. I have to keep repeating Romans 12:2 over and over and over again.

"Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve God's will--His good, pleasing, and perfect will!"

Thank you God for Your word that speaks truth. I pray that You'd give me humility and understanding in difficult matters like this. I ask that You'd pour Your love and kindness into me daily so I could love on everyone in this world that has conformed and has lost their way, and to those who haven't. I ask that You'd give me mercy and You'd show Your grace. The state of our world brings me to tears Lord, I can only imagine how it breaks YOUR heart. I know I'm also guilty of twisting what you say to make it fit into my own lifestyle choices, and I'm so sorry for the times that I did that. I thank You for showing me the errors in that and for showing me what You say is truth and should be followed. I ask that You reveal Yourself and Your holiness to people that need to hear the truth. I thank You for Your love and grace Father. In Your precious name, Amen.

Saturday, November 5, 2011

Dreaming In A Winter Wonderland...

Woke up and felt like I was home because it was so cool in our apartment and I was so cozy! I wanted to look out the window and see snow falling slowly, making everything outside quieter and softer :) CANNOT wait for one month and eleven days! Yayyyy!

Listening to "Marry Me" makes any girl's mind wander...

"You wear white and I'll wear out the words 'I love you' and 'you're beautiful'...the wait is over."

Tonight was one of those nights I was thinking about how lucky I am to have Josh. No, not lucky, it wasn't luck that brought him into my life. It was God. So now I rephrase and say how BLESSED I am to have Josh. Not in a needy/desperate way! I've never felt like I needed a guy to make me happy or feel good about myself. But Josh, he's the real deal. He's it. Just thinking about the almost TEN months we've shared together makes me emotional (what doesn't make me emotional...? haha!). I feel like it's been so much longer than that because I know all of him and he knows all of me, but I also can't believe it's almost been a year that has passed! Where does time go?

Anyways, just reflecting on the love that fills my heart from such a wonderful man, the laughter and joy he brings into my life, the comfort he helps me find through his wise words from experience and from encouraging me to turn to God, the reminder he is that obedience and trust in God is the most important thing and that God is just and faithful to those who trust in many things I've learned from Josh. I can't believe how blessed I am. Looking at the lyrics for the song at the top, I laugh. Almost a year ago, a friend jokingly asked if I thought I'd marry Josh. I laughed it off, simply because I already felt at that point that he was the one that God had placed into my life to be my lifelong friend, lifelong encourager in my faith, and lifelong love...but I was too afraid to let myself fall that easily, or admit that I had already fallen. I didn't know what the future held then, and I still don't with 100% certainty--only God does. But I trust that all things work together for His good.

To close, I want to quote a recent chapel speaker who asked us, "how will your marriage help God's kingdom?" I love this quote and remind myself of it every time I think about the future with Josh and wherever that may be...this question from the speaker at chapel is the most important thing you can ask as a couple before making such a decision. HIS kingdom come, HIS will be done...however He may choose to do that to best further His kingdom is the way it should be done :)

It is longggg past my bedtime! Sweet dreams!


Wednesday, November 2, 2011

Trusting in the Lord!

I'm so excited it's November! Where do the days go?! I'm almost halfway done with my sophomore year! Wow! A year ago, I had it all figured out--or so I thought. I've always been a planner, but now God is saying, "You have to trust ME!" So as confused as I am about my future now and what I will choose to study, I'm excited about this opportunity to trust in God with all I've got! What a loving God I have that He would pick the biggest barrier I have (planner, future-looking) and take it away to force me to depend on Him. I've been praying about this barrier for a longgg time because I know it can put a gap between God & I. Now there is no gap! Gotta love faith :)

I'm currently listening to the sound of the wind blowing through the trees and feel at ease...I'm pretending they're not palm trees so I don't feel like I'm on vacation haha. It's funny the simple things I took for granted at home...the things I now find such beauty in and would do anything for. I couldn't wait to leave Minnesota and now I can't wait to leave California.

It can be very difficult for me to see the beauty in California. It's so ironic because people choose this as a vacation destination--now I see it as dirty, over-populated, not so friendly people, and everything over-priced. Last week I kept looking at schools near my home that I could try and transfer to junior year. I miss everything about it sooooo much. Jamie says that comes in waves, but I feel like this is either an extremely large wave or a brick wall I'll have to get used to. I love APU so much and am so grateful to be here, but it doesn't feel right most of the time. The midwest will always be home. I desperately hope that it's where I'll end up. For now, I'll finish school at APU and see where God leads me after that.

Life is such an adventure, every day a precious precious gift. As lonely as I might feel living here sometimes, I have to remember how truly blessed I am and how people have much worse things to worry about--like being persecuted for their faith or starving to death. The blessings God has given me are abundant and overflowing! These thoughts are the ones that keep me positive. God is my light in the darkness, my sustainer, my provider. For that, I will remain grateful. For that, I will look to my God for comfort and peace.